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This return deserved a post of its own. Hence this little Newsletter to share some news with you, some of my updates from these past few months. Thank you for the many messages asking if everything was okay, where I’d disappeared to. It warms my heart; I really felt the absence of constantly connecting with you, sharing about sewing, the latest patterns, DIY techniques, etc.
We’re pregnant!
A new turning point in my life, a new chapter in my story as well as this blog’s. Girls, we’re expecting a little doll! I don’t know who this little one will be, I have no idea about her personality or moods, but whoever she is, I hope she knows where she’s arriving because a doll she will be. You know, for several years now, I’ve bought/kept little fabric pieces that I thought would be perfect for my future child (and oddly enough I always imagined her as a girl…). I don’t have that many pieces, but from memory, I kept a pink sequined neoprene from Maje to make her a skirt, a leopard wool also from Maje to sew her a coat collar and maybe add matching patch pockets (I’m not sure I want to sew her an entire coat in leopard…), small linen pieces from Merchant & Mills to make her overalls and dresses. In short, style-wise, I’m ready!
And yet at the beginning of this pregnancy and as my belly grew, everyone agreed: “Pointed belly: it’s definitely a boy!” I wasn’t disappointed, for me a child is a child, especially when it’s the first. And besides, the idea of having a boy didn’t stop my creative frenzy at all. Far from it, I took it as an extra challenge: Make him wear Peter Pan collars as long as possible, adapt his wardrobe to styles previously reserved for little girls, but without feminizing him. Or adapt men’s styles to a little boy, in short, make him a little doll. So as you can see, I had completely embraced the idea of a little boy, I’d found him a lovely name, imagined his personality, thought about building our mother-son relationship, all that for the ultrasound 3 weeks ago to announce it’s a little girl. Honestly, how can I put it… Please don’t judge me, but it felt like a tragedy. I felt like my little boy had been taken from me. My reaction wasn’t right, and I still feel guilty about it. It’s crazy how the human mind has the capacity to cling to others’ words to the point of making them absolute truth while forgetting one’s original wish. How could I have internalized an unconfirmed idea based on simple assumptions, superstitions, deductions, to the point of creating such a relationship with a little being? I had to rebuild this relationship again, still keeping the idea of this little being, but this time with the image of a little girl. Today, that’s it, I only want her!
And various questions…
For now our little doll doesn’t have a name yet, we’re still searching. It’s no small matter to give a child a name, a name that will not only follow them their entire life, but will also be an integral part of their identity. I often think “Who am I to have this power?” By the way, do you think a name influences an individual’s personality? I’ve leafed through name dictionaries and consulted sites like www.signification-prenom.com looking up names of people around me to check if the personality description matched the name. I can tell you that 90% of the time the description fit exactly… I don’t know how that’s possible. In any case, for now I refuse to believe it until I understand how this correspondence is made. Do you have an opinion on this?
I also have of course many other questions as diverse as they are varied, for example about genetics, childhood illness, motherhood, education, time management, oh yes time management! So here I am making all these plans to sew X, Y and Z. But in reality, will I have the time? They say you always find time for things that are important to you; will this theory prove true? The future will no doubt tell me.
Motherhood, Creativity & Style?
In any case while waiting for the future, while waiting for February 2019, there are pregnancy looks I absolutely want to show you. You know, I’ve always said that when I’m pregnant, my belly will be an accessory around which my look will be organized. It’s not an easy bet to take when you feel all bloated and tired. But one good thing about sewing is that you can make yourself clothes WITH ELASTIC WAISTS!!! We’ll talk about this in I believe all the maternity look posts I’ve scheduled for you in the coming weeks. The idea is also that we can share about maternity-friendly patterns whether for yourself or to gift to a pregnant woman in your life. There’s so little in terms of clothing on the market for expectant mothers that offering a handmade garment designed for maternity is such a lovely gift. So stay tuned for all that; Hoping you’ll find it interesting, and that on my end I manage to keep my bet, that of staying well put-together even when I’m pregnant to the teeth!
Kisses,
